ALONE

It is such a strange feeling the feeling of being alone. its possible to feel that way weather you see people everyday or not. People think you cant feel this way if you have a houseful of people. the reality is you absolutely can. I’m married my husband truly is a great man I have 2 kids my daughter lives part time here because of college and I have an 8 year old boy and sometimes I feel like a ghost . They love me I know they do but, I feel unseen and unheard except for dinner time and when things are needed to be be found or bought and paid for. Its no ones fault its just how life is . Its the part of this wonderful thing we call adulthood and motherhood I don’t think we are really supposed to talk about that part. Motherhood is supposed to be thought of as an amazing gift and in many ways it is . we think we’ve been given a gift and can’t talk about the times when we are forgotten or taken for granted we are the mother and its hard as it should be we are raising tiny humans and trying are hardest to not let the rest of the world how alone we feel deep down in the pits of our stomachs. I say we because I can’t be the only one that feels this way . Again yes I have support of a wonderful man my boy really is a great kid but sometimes I’m the ghost that walks these halls the food gets paid for and put on the table house cleaned child gets his shower and so much more . I’t does make me wonder who else feels this way and I do often think about if my husband feels this way not for the same reasons of course but, does he maybe one day we can crack the code and figure a way to get men to open up.